Aching

My heart is aching...

No matter how hard we try to make life easier and to get back on an even keel something happens.

We've been fighting so hard tog et help for Miss K.  Ever since she was in grade 1 we have had an inkling something was a little amiss, but we didn't think things would get to this point.

Yesterday we finally had a paediatrician appointment followed by her therapy session at CAMHS (child and adolescent mental health services)  new information has come to light.  I can't be certain it is all accurate, but we can't take the risk anymore.

Apparently Miss K is has been hearing voices.  She has been cutting, in fact her whole arms are covered in cuts.  We don't think she is cutting to really do much other than get attention - but that in itself is concerning.  She has accessed medications, knives and scissors at school and threatened other children's lives and welfare on top of her own.  

At the very least she has been diagnosed with ODD (Oppositional Defiant Disorder)  and depression and suspected psychosis and related mental health illness.  

We are reeling...

We knew things were bad.  We have been pushing so long to get help.  We have hit roadblocks all the way through being told that it's nothing, or it's just her... now this....  Its a relief to know that we are FINALLY being listened to and getting help.  Just, this?!?!  Our hearts are breaking that she has been unwell and unable to tap into help for so long...  

So we are now waiting to see a psychiatrist for her.  Until that happens we have made the choice she is to remain home as we can not be certain she is safe any longer at school (or other students for that matter)  Hopefully it will be sooner rather than later.  

I'm exhausted....  

Trying to hold everything and everyone together...

It's not easy, but what else can we do?  

**breathe**